Song #3. Written by Cody Miller and Gavin Kerr. Recorded with and Produced by Scooter Allen of Rewire Studios.
This song was the turning point of the band where they really "found their sound". While writing the song, Gavin struggled to come up with a sufficient hook and melody for the chorus that captured the power of emotion and message the song has. Eventually giving in and booking the studio time it came down to the wire trying to get this chorus written and recorded. The rest of the song was finished when Scooter said "This chorus doesn't feel like a chorus. Let's just rewrite it all". Scooter, Cody, and songwriter Colin Rustik sat down and rewrote the entire chorus instrumentally. During this a flood of ideas began to circle in Gavin's head until they finished recording the new chorus and he stood to the mic saying "Let me try something".
What you hear in the recording is lightning caught in a bottle as that is the very first time Gavin...The first time that I ever sang that chorus. We knew that was it when I finished hitting that last note. We knew that was the true beginning of Kissing Lilith.

Lyrics

Intro:
I can feel it crashing
Maybe I'm the problem
I don't know what to do ×4

V1:
I feel the love
I hesitate
Hold my breath through a mental earthquake
I'm waiting for my world to fall (fall apart)
Is it too good? If it's just great?
Which step until the ground breaks
Maybe life's safer in the dark

I can see it
I can feel it
Everything in the palm of my hand
Like a siren
Calling to me
I FEEL SO BLIND

I can taste it
Scared I'll waste it
Please don't wake me if I'm dreaming
Self-Destruction
Seems so tempting
SWALLOW MY PRIDE

C)
I can feel it bleeding from the inside
Intoxicating losing focus blurred lines
I'm in love with the thought of gentle suicide
Kiss Me Kill Me Either Way I'm Not Afraid To Die

God I crave this
Don't deserve this × 3
God I crave this
Don't deserve

V2)
God I crave this
Don't deserve this
Success and happiness
If you ask me
I will promise
EVERYTHING'S FINE
I am trying
More than trying
Trying more than just surviving
I'm defining
That I'm trying to
CROSS THAT LINE

I can see it
I can feel it
Everything slipping out of my hands
Crucify me
Please deny me
I FEEL ALIVE

I can taste it
I will waste it
Please don't catch cause I'm falling
Self-Destruction
So addicting
CHOKE ON MY PRIDE

C)
I can feel it bleeding from the inside
Intoxicating losing focus blurred lines
I'm in love with the thought of gentle suicide
Kiss Me Kill Me Either Way I'm Not Afraid To Die

(Guitar Solo)

C)
I can feel it bleeding from the inside
Intoxicating losing focus blurred lines
I'm in love with the thought of gentle suicide
Kiss Me Kill Me Either Way I'm Not Afraid To Die
I can see the world burn through my eyes
From the Ashes let me live a new life
I can feel it healing from the inside
Kiss Me Kill Me Either Way I'm Not
Afraid To Die